yea lack there of.

So I've been ignoring my blog..a lot lately and it is probably because I'm afraid to admit what is finally happening? Ex boyfriend moving on,future ones moving on,the four musketeers falling apart. Yet as this is all happening it feels almost as if I'm standing in a room full of people and all I can do is scream and watch as they movie on and ignore the noises that come out. I was recently thinking,deeply ..more than usual and I came to the conclusion that I want to quit writing. Quit cold flat. The only thing I'm going to finish is the story that I promised,but other than that I think its's time to retire this hobby and let it fade.

Anyway lets rewind to relive what has happened within these last few days,shall we?

Ian found out how Ric feels,smoked a pack of ciggs within a week,found out orientation is next week,cry myself to sleep every night,denied a job,cut open to the point of stitches needed,my toe. cut my arm by trying to help my toe. Ate so much food beyond capability,found out how much money i had left in my bank,denied the one person that listens to me ,denied multiple people my opinions. hmm so much has happened anyway next blog: probably about new blog?.....